We were all beginners at one point.
You think that one day you just stood up and started walking like a pro? Um, no. We all looked like drunken babies at one point.
Literally everything you've ever done was once hard. Writing your name, using a fork, brushing your teeth. We gave ourselves grace then, so why not now? How come, as we grow to be teens and adults, we lose patience with our own learning curves? Be proud of where you are, and keep practicing. You will get to where you want to be. We have faith in you!